Smoothed out one area, others still rough

I don't know how many people, if any, actually read my blog...but for those of you who read my previous entry and are just dying to know what's happened with the mystery friend (notice I didn't even give away if this person is a guy or girl? I did that on purpose so no one would know) I'll give you a little update. Last night this person called me and we had a long, Long, LONG conversation. Everything was smoothed out between us. I wasn't being over dramatic, either - this person realized how much they had hurt me and how wrong they were and tearfully apologized. I just wish that I could have been in person to have the conversation so that I could hug them. But, anyways, things might be awkward for awhile, but the relationship was saved.

I almost dread coming back from church camp every year. Something major in my life seems to go wrong when I arrive home. This year it was all that friend drama, on top of hearing that two very close friends of the family, a husband and wife, were in a terrible motorcycle accident. Going to see them in the hospital on Sunday was right up there with one of the hardest things I've ever had to do. I had to step out of the husband's room at one point because it was too much for me.

The wife is still in ICU, and when we went to see her, memories of the last time I was in an ICU room flooded back to me...thankfully there will be two wonderfully different endings in the stories. She WILL live, but Doug didn't. This fall it will have been two years, and the funny thing is that because Doug had the habit of coming in and out of my life over the many years I knew him in the back of my mind I'll find myself wondering about him and despite the fact that the memories of seeing him in that ICU room and then in his coffin are still so fresh in my mind, it doesn't seem real. It seems like it'll only be a matter of time before he pops back into my life again.

I'm facing a bunch of really tough decisions, and I'm not looking forward to any of it. There is a conversation that I have to have with my parents hanging over my head and I'm absolutely dreading it. But, God knows what He's doing and if I follow His lead, it'll all be okay.